retro

i feel old..
i was sitting in a taxi back to camp when the radio(it was on) started playing reflections of my life.. it's a pretty old song from marmalade but it brought back old memories..
so feeling sentimental, i asked the driver to increase the volume..
imagine his surprise when a young army enlistee ask him to increase the volume of a sentimental song.. he expected me to be some young punk rocker kind of guy and to turn down the volume.. i guess he was kinda curious why so we talked about the values of old songs and how its slow rhythm soothes the soul in this fast paced world..

that brings me back to one of my characteristics.. one of my friends had called me a status quo guardian.. i guess the sentimentality of my character helps me in this task..
i dunno why but i can get pretty sentimental.. like when i was young, i got this pillow that i wouldn't let go, when my grandma finally threw it away, i was crying nonstop..
back to being a status quo guardian, i guess i'm unwilling to change processes and stuff but i also acknowledge change is necessary so i try to strike a balance..

but still i kinda live in the past..
wish i didn't but it's just me