trust

trust - what a complicated word..

i hate being trusted but sometimes the feeling is like so addictive.
cos when ppl put their trust in u, u have to live up to expectations which sometimes can be overbearing. and also when u dun live up to their trust, the disappointment in them can really deal a blow to morale..
on the other hand, being trusted means that u can get things done quickly, especially w/o the need of being checked thru.. feels good to be trusted
but sometimes i rather ppl check thru what i do so that they dun have their trust misplaced..

do i really come across as someone rather trustworthy?
i think so cos ppl seem to be trusting me, be it ppl i just met(like taxi-drivers willing to let me draw cash at atm w/o fear that i run off), or ppl i've known for a long time..
i rather not be trusted fully..
checks and balances